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I’ve recently decided that I’m going to tighten the proverbial belt when it comes to finances. I’ve been very critical of my federal government for not spending carefully and conservatively when times are tough, so I figure I can at least try to live up to my own standard. In finding myself in dire financial straits, one thing I decided last fall was to not replace my winter coat. A coat is a garment, designed to keep one warm and protect us from the elements. It is not (or should not be) a reflection of one’s status. Function must trump form. But clothing breaks down—its insulatory value diminishes, the fabric thins and wears, and the extremities—the cuffs and collar and edges, become pilled, frayed, and knotted. Will people judge me for wearing tattered, worn out clothes? In the line at the food store? At church? At Target? Will people be that shallow? Probably not.
If you’re not used to being broke and suddenly find yourself broke, some of the behavioral changes you find yourself going through can be uncomfortable. If you’ve been broke in the past but moved beyond it, and then find yourself broke again, these changes can seem like old familiar territory. For me, wearing this now seven year old coat, with its worn fabric and knotty, pilling frays, is a return to comfortable territory. There may be something nice about a brand new coat, but there’s something even nicer about comfort and “wear.”
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The Native American patterned blanket lining is pilling. It smells like me; it does not have “that new Carhartt smell.” The corners of the pocket flaps are frayed, as are the cuffs, and I find myself quickly snapping the knotted threads of deterioration to break them free. Perhaps it is obsessive-compulsive behavior, or it could just be to rationally eliminate the possibility of the threads snagging, accelerating the garment’s demise—I’m not sure. But I find myself walking with a little more freedom and personality in this coat… as if I’m walking with an old friend, not new boss or supervisor. It feels more like me, for I too have frays and knots and areas of discolored deterioration.
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I remember how much fun it was to go to Blue Seal & pick out that coat for your birthday, knowing it was something you really wanted. Hard to believe it's that many years ago ... and so glad it still gives you pleasure.
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